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TANＳＣ ｉｓ ｔｈ ｂｅｓｔ ｔｅａｃｈｅｒ．
Ｔｈｅ ｌｕｎｗｅｎ Ｉ ｕｓｅｄ ｆｏｒ ｍｙ ｔｅｒｍ ３ ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅ
ｔｈｅ ｏｎｅ ｉ ｒｅｓｅａｒｃｈｅｄ ｌｉｋｅ ｓｉａｏ．
ｔｈｅ ｏｎｅ ｉ ｓｐｅｎｔ ｓｏ ｍｕｃｈ ｔｉｍｅ ｏｎ．
ｓｈｅ ｄｉｓｍｉｓｓｅｄ ｉｔ ａｓ ｃｒａｐ．
ｓｈｅ ｓａｙｓ ｗｈａｔ ｗｅ ｄｏ ｉｓ ｌｉｔｔｌｅ ｓｈｉｔ． ｎｏ ｆ
ｉ ｓａｙ ｕｃｋ ｙｏｕ ｔａｎ ｓｉｕ ｃｈｉｎｇ
ok so i spent a lot. just bought one wooden mugen and one iron senbonsakura for 350 yuan. its ok but still very expensive.....
+ i am going to buy a new vb shoe here (hopefully. so i just i am going to spend approx 1k sing in 6 weeks... crazzy le..
Beijing has been a great trip, the movies cheaper stuffs. cheaper rates and mass spending of cash.
Although China products are relatively cheaper. I spent like super lots of cash. 3.5k in total which is 700 sing. 700 sing in 5 weeks. ~ 120 sing per week. a lot of cash.........
kinda scared that my dad will be pissed. further more, I don't even know how to bring all the stuffs back.
reflections. lunwen . ppts. lots of stfufs to be countinued
And facebook is still unaccessable in Beijing and I suppose all around China too. 3rd wweek and well people are starting to get cranky, including me.
Well the CIP was rather successful in my sense. But i was just talking and teaching the 6 kids in the front of the class.
Maybe Danny was right in the sense that ya, I didn't do much and thus should not say anything. Besides Danny tanked everything. oh wells.
a slipped of my tongue made Danny thought had I am implying that all he has done is useless.
But well I suppose out duty is just to show some careto them and not to like teach alot of stuffs.
Dfferent people different viewpoints I guess.
I am kinda loving the Beijing envirnment but I am dreading the fact that only left 3 weeks. and that once back in SG.
Need to train train and train. lunwen is also another aspect to take care of.
I spent 3 k yuan le. THATS A LOT OF CASH. holy shit la
+ i'm trying to cut the vulgarities habit i have. or at least lower the frq. of the usage.
Time to go back to dorm.
..... did you really shake hu's hands?
Yellow is a star.
Yellow is the sun.
Yellow is the moon,
When the day is done.
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Orange
Orange is an orange.
Orange is a carrot.
Orange is the colour
of the beak of a parrot.
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Orange
(To the tune of "The Wheels on the Bus")
The pumpkins in my garden are orange, orange, orange,
O-R-A-N-G-E.
The oranges on my tree are orange, orange, orange,
O-R-A-N-G-E.
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Blue
Blue is the ocean.
Blue is the sky.
Blue are the blueberries
I put into the pie.
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Blue
(To the tune of "Row, Row Row Your Boat")
B-L-U-E
Spells the color blue.
The sky, the ocean and some birds
Are all a beautiful blue.
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Pink
Pink skies
and butterflies
are truly a
sight to see,
But pink-eye
infection would
be no fun
for me.
Grapefruit pulp,
the salmon's flesh,
carnations
in a vase,
Pink elephant
nightmares
with candy
as the cause.
Stop and think
about the pink
that's everyday
around you,
Ballerina sister,
a bouncing twister,
around the house
in her tutu.
james hörner
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Green
Green is grass,
String beans and peas.
Green are the branches
on Christmas trees.
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Green
(To the tune of "London Bridge is Falling Down")
G-R-E-E-N spells green,
Like a frog,
Or a tree.
G-R-E-E-N spells green,
Just like broccoli.
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Green
Green is the grass
and the watermelon skin,
fourth colour in the rainbow,
the emeralds in a ring.
Bright green apples
are bitter to the tongue,
but spinach and broccoli-
I eat them up yum!
Green mold is medicine
known as penicillin,
and water fights with
green balloons sure are thrillin'.
Green means go
when driving, beep! beep!
and green lily pads
are where the frogs sleep.
For flowers and trees,
and the prickly cactus too-
green is important,
as it is for me and you.
james hörner
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Red
Red is an apple.
Red is a cherry.
Red is a rose.
And a ripe strawberry.
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Red
The fireman's hat
is too big for my head,
so I wear a red bucket
when playing, instead.
Red ruby treasure
on Valentine's Day,
with imagination
it's "Pirates" we play.
Your nose turns red
when it's cold outside,
and sometimes too
when you're sad inside.
Some girls wear red ribbons,
bows tied in their hair,
while eating red berries
is the big, black bear.
Hearts are red on cards,
and also in your chest,
red is the colour
that I like best.
james hörner
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Red
(can be sung to the tune of Three Blind Mice)
R. E. D.
R. E. D.
Red is the word
Red is the word
Apples and strawberries both are red
Tomatoes and cherries both are red
R.E.D. spells
Red, red, red.
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Purple
Purple are grapes.
Purple are plums.
Purple is a violet.
And the bruise on my thumb.
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Brown
Brown is mud,
Brown is toast,
Brown is chocolate,
And a Sunday roast.
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Brown
(To the tune of "Farmer in the Dell")
B-R-O-W-N
B-R-O-W-N
B-R-O-W-N
That's how you spell brown.
The gingerbread man is brown.
The gingerbread man is brown.
B-R-O-W-N
The gingerbread man is brown.
And chocolate chips are brown.
And chocolate chips are brown.
B-R-O-W-N
That's how you spell brown.
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Colour Song
(to the tune of "The Itsy Bitsy Spider")
Orange is a carrot,
Yellow is a pear,
Green is the grass,
And brown is a bear,
Purple is a plum,
Blue is the sky,
Black is a witch's hat,
And red is cherry pie.
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Green Giant
There lived a green giant whose name was Sam.
His hair was the colour of strawberry jam.
He had one brown and one blue eye,
And a beard the colour of pumpkin pie.
His coat and pants were gay and bright,
Like a peppermint stick, all red and white.
His shoes were as brown as a chocolate drop.
His stockings were yellow as lemon pop.
His hat was the colour of ginger bread
With a tall, tall feather of raspberry red.
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The Colour Song
(To the tune of "This Old Man")
Red, red, red, touch your head.
Blue, blue, blue, tie your shoe.
Brown, brown, brown, touch the ground.
White, white, white, take a bite.
Black, black, black, touch your back.
Purple, purple, purple, draw a circle.
Pink, pink, pink, give a wink.
Gray, gray, gray, shout hurray!
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What Colours do I See?
See, see, see!
What colours do I see?
Purple plums,
Red tomatoes,
Yellow corn,
Brown potatoes,
Green lettuce!
Yum, yum, yum, good!
I learn so many colours,
When I eat my food.
damncool
It has been 3 weeks in
Here we are in beijing, Rm 06 bought the Strawhat pirate flag, byakuya cosplay suit. crazy rm. HAHA.
Its damn cold here, I am really scared that I wouldn't be able to get used to Singapore weather fast enough when we get back. Additionally, I spent like siao 3 k yuan in 3 wks. I am counting on the fact that I wouldn't be doing any more souviner spree anymore.
Bought a lot of sowrd chains and there are some that are like spoiled........
Most importantly. although I am getting more flexible in BJ. I am getting weaker.
Even though the cold may be afffecting my vj. but sucks to it
The 1st week of the 6 weeks of
，北京动物园，天安门广场，故宫，景山公园。The 1st week of lessons have also passed and I am enjoying the Beijing 6 weeks immersion life.
Definitely the life between the two cities are different, the way they behave to the simplest stuffs like how to cross the roads. I actually like the
北京规划展览馆really had opened my mind to the various planning of a city structure. To think that the raffles town plan was good,
I shan’t talk much about the vendors at the bargainable areas, but just have to say that even though we would like to get the cheapest price for ourselves, we still have to let them earn some cash. When I see my dad bargaining at 红桥市场 I was wowed. Its like his negotiation skills in his business is thoroughly used in communicating with the vendors. He laughs about with them, like friends, strike up convos easily, I really wonder if I am able to do what my dad can do. Time to try to be more outgoing I guess, learn to talk to strangers. Like how he just talks to a random French man in the subway, I am baffled on how he manages to do that. I guess what my dad said has some facts, “bargaining has much similarity with negotiating with clients”. Just a personal opinion, 红桥市场vendors are much more friendlier than in
北京动物园 the animals there are “dead”. I had a work attachment in the Zoo before and animals can’t really be just locked up in a cage like what we see in the北京动物园. Singapore Zoo built specific enclosures to suit the animals’ original habitats and I don’t see that happening in北京动物园. The African animals living in a freakin’ cold climate, that’s wrong.
天安门广场，故宫，景山公园 pictures undermine the view when you are personally there. I’m not lying. I stand in the middle of天安门广场, I feel as though I am in a stadium, playing/performing/in the eyes of an audience, of more than millions. The feeling was overwhelming; of course very sportsman would like to play in the highest level. I wonder how that would feel like.
故宫, a PALACE BUILT for one person, the emperor. It is like what the f***, that place is crazy, it’s huge, it’s nice it rocks. But well we can conclude that the Chinese of the past really follow that strict hierarchical structure, with the emperor up there. Its not a bad thing, on the flipside its actually another ruling method that has its pros and cons.
hm.. i cant change but i am trying to work towards a better life,. perhaps a more active childhood is good
1st day:
We officially entered
Dinner was nice.
Note to self, 10 mins plus of overseas calls burst the 50 bucks sim.
2nd day.
Took公车22 号 to前门 ,I was expecting to be squeezed like shit. But I o\ver expected, it was much spacious then expected. We walked to北京规划展览馆to see the past and present infrastructure planning of
AT NIGHT!. Xiong shits hard
3rd Day:
Officially the 1st day Beijing Satellite Campus Schooling for 6 weeks just started today.
The local teachers were very very friendly and nice. Their knowledge vastly surpass the
4th day:
Notes taken:
师傅，说句实话，如果您会亏本您就不会在这儿了。
Speak in good jest. Joke around. Go as low as you can. Observe the face.Don’t be too serious. If they ask you where you are, reply with an indirect answer . eg. 你认为我是从那儿来的。。。。。。。 我爹是从福建来的。
。went to 北京动物园。Saw the great pandas, and other animals weird to find African animals there though. Wonder how they actually adapt to the cold surroundings which is obviously unlike their original habitat’s temp. the underwater world is very lame.. no whales. Nothing much. Ate at mian ai mian, nice. Then went to 服装批发市场。Walked around with Edwin 1st then ended \up with ernest. He bought his vans while I bought my nike. We got kinda scammed but the auntie was nice. Although it may be a scam to trick us but well, it’s a good experience. They look at your shoes to offer you price and I learnt some tips from ms ong by during the night session. So well I shall take it as an investment.
5th Day
Burst the 2bd 50 yuan value.
The idea to mix the guys around with the girls worked lol. Now victor is the only class with tables that occupy both guys and girls. Interesting ya. And can see that people are getting along better.
At night, Ernest was fooling around with his “madow” anime adaptation. Rm 6 is nuts. He is like a gangster boos that jokes lolol. And the same night, placed redox tablets in the mouth directly. Wtf.
Fell sick
Day 6,
Went to 天安门广场 to sight see, saw the mao portrait and the flag in the first person view. The area was rather overwhelming its like standing in the middle of anfield stadium. I not very sure its just like being in front of a fucking huge audience and performing in front of them. Entered gu gong subsequently to see the palace that was built for the sole purpose of one guy, the emperor. freaking big and mazy. The emperor will have to find for a long time to go too the loo. The tour guide was nice, although m rang said she was a new person, but like when the china history info comes out from a china local, its like so convincing. And I infer the the empress was rather short, cause I whacked my head onto the ceiling of the corridor entrance while walking through the area built for the empress. What luck. So walked walked and walked, we ended up joking around with the tour guide and \eventually saying good bye. Then went to climb jing shan gong yuan. I thought It would be a mini kinabalu, But it turned out that 3 mins its all we need to own the hill. Not mountain. The scene there was breathtaking, you can see the ent\ire gu gong from up there, very nice, pictures just undermine the actual feeling of seeing it you’re your eyes. After that the group split up and I Went out with dad. We sat the tuck tuck (trishaw like vehicle) to eat at some lao
AND the worst thing is that I saw a replica of my shoes, and they offered 100 yuan straight. Haiz, I bargained to 100 yuan and they offered to 100 yuan straight. That kinda show how noob I was. But I got some name cards, shal go back to buy shoes and stuffs when the group goes there :D:D. Took the subway to the station close by the dorm with dad and met some
Day 7,
Went to xiu shui jie. Saw lots of stuffs I want to buy. But come to think about it I hesitated cos I decided to bbuy them later the trip. Maybe like 4th week.
Oh ya. It snowed today, 1st November 2009. Earlier thaan expected by most. Kinda cool while irritating. Cause snow really makes walking troublesome. But experiencing snow is cool.
My life shoul'nt change. Every obstacle or stumbling block is there to make me learn new things and push me on
Notes taken:
师傅，说句实话，如果您会亏本您就不会在这儿了。
Speak in good jest. Joke around. Go as low as you can. Observe the face.Don’t be too serious. If they ask you where you are, reply with an indirect answer . eg. 你认为我是从那儿来的。。。。。。。 我爹是从福建来的。
wait for the sunday. MORE updates and pics.
- Mood:
bouncy
WELL, after BJ bah.
Beijing seems fun fun fun. but at the same time must traintraintrain without tearing any shit.
so i can come back to win.
- Music:All the above - Maino feat. T-pain
Boy meets girl. Boy falls in love. Girl doesn't. This post modern love story is never what we expect it to be its thorny yet exhilarating, funny and sad, a twisted journey of highs and lows that doesn't quite go where we think it will. When Tom, a hapless greeting card copywriter and hopeless romantic, is blindsided after his girlfriend Summer dumps him, he shifts back and forth through various periods of their 500 days "together" to try to figure out where things went wrong. His reflections ultimately lead him to finally rediscover his true passions in life.
Time Traveller's Wife
Based on the best-selling book about a love that transcends time. Clare has been in love with Henry her entire life. She believes they are destined to be together, even though she never knows when they will be separated: Henry is a time traveler -- cursed with a rare genetic anomaly that causes him to live his life on a shifting timeline, skipping back and forth through his lifespan with no control. Despite the fact that Henry's travels force them apart with no warning, Clare desperately tries to build a life with her one true love.
Handle With Care (2009)
When Charlotte and Sean O’Keefe’s daughter, Willow, is born with severe osteogenesis imperfecta, they are devastated – she will suffer hundreds of broken bones as she grows, a lifetime of pain. As the family struggles to make ends meet to cover Willow’s medical expenses, Charlotte thinks she has found an answer. If she files a wrongful birth lawsuit against her ob/gyn for not telling her in advance that her child would be born severely disabled, the monetary payouts might ensure a lifetime of care for Willow. But it means that Charlotte has to get up in a court of law and say in public that she would have terminated the pregnancy if she’d known about the disability in advance – words that her husband can’t abide, that Willow will hear, and that Charlotte cannot reconcile. And the ob/gyn she’s suing isn’t just her physician – it’s her best friend.
3 stories, slices of the different sides of people's life.
Sec 4 is do 200%.
i am going to slide on the ground with my knees, and embrace that moment. one day i shall.
i shall bring you out on the movie, or at least keep asking till you agree as friends.
i shall make sure my wrist gets strong by 1st jan.
i
It as aways been there. EOYs coming. people starting to choing mug. mug until like some gay.
but i dont understand mugging. like choing mugging. like ok now i stay up till 1 am to review / revise some parts i'm blur at.
but like wtf. people. mug b4 sch. mug after sch. mug till 3am to get gd grades. wth . its like stupid .
ok studying is ok. periodically. its good. but if you choing mug for the sake of the exam it becomes pointless.
mug to learn not to ace the exam and show off.
DANNY LI KEYI BSP Camper
WEE YANG XI. still regards me as reverend though my hair longer le
NICK ANDRE. funky name zheng jie's friend
NICHOLAS TENG. OBSabah + Help 3B1 get 2nd in 12x200
AND ME.
Rm09 BSC. not bad.
UPBEAT FOR THE TRIPTRIPTRIPTRIPTRIPTRIPT
and i seriously doubt the guys will get "high" over nygh. cus too much time to dota basketball and training for it :D:D:D:D:D::D
- Mood:
crazy
NO training 4 days in a row. CAN YOU IMAGINE.
0 muscle growth and i think got like 10 % muscle reduction.
NOOOOOOOO
If one day you lose the love for your CCA/hobby.
Just ask yourself, what was the factor that spured you for so long.
If there's no answer. I tell you that you've wasted a large chunk of your life.
I tell you that i've "trial-and-error"ed, and that being stronger, better and proving people that i can do it is my motivation.
In the variety of CCAs that i've been in, i don't feel a strong passion for it.
Maybe, its my teammates, I've felt the jealousy, envy and frustration well playing vball. Something that was absent in my squash, table tennis days. I feel fucked up that i can't be the setter, frustrated whenever the ball ain't set beautifully.
Thinking that, fuck i should be the one playmaking. Hmm. but then i guess i don't have the skills required, so i stay contented as a mid. spiker.
But well, Spiking, is,boring. Lets just say that I hate being the one that lands the finishing touches. I'd rather be the one playmaking, or starting the play.
WELL MAX, dont get offended if you read this.
But i really want to get out of that mid.spiker position. and stray into sub-set or a setter role.
:D yeah, dont laugh. I know that i ain't cut out for the job yeah. well, i guess beijing will be a test to see then. Train Train Train.Jing jie better get his legs back up. so i can stray into other position.
Yes i understand that wanting another job when i can't even do a fantastic job spiking. not thundering consitently is like stupid. but well. thats my thoughts yea.....Teehee.
But either way. i still have to
1) Jump higher.
2) Hang Longer
3)Spike faster
4)Thunder more
5)Set better
6)Dig better
:D thats like what most vballers have to do.. but i have to do more !!!!
1-5 can be done thru gym, physical training which i shall focus from the exam break to well i get to beijing.
2-6 can only be perfected on the court. which i only left bout 6 weeks to do it.
I HAVE TO UP MY PHYSIQUE!!!!!!!
- Mood: crazy
- Music:Broken - Lifehouse
Can't keep watching action/adventure movies right.
so sometimes have to watch movies with a bit of "slcie of life" in it.
TIME TRAVELLER's WIFE.
i heard the book was like very nice. but well couldn't get myself to read it so
went to vivo with linz to watch it.
YES it was weird. all couples. den in the middle. two hwachong guys.
its a damn nice movie. seriously . WATCH IT :D:D:D
gay show. i love trailers :D
- Location:Love Story - Taylor Swift
- Mood:
ecstatic
the holidays so far. have been revision productive but not homeworking productive.
good and bad ya?
kept mugging cus i lazy to do homework.
unsure whether its gd or not ?
oh. my dad left for business, sis left for jp for a month. kai left for malaysia for bout a week.;
from a family of 7 people. left only 4. how miserable ya?..
looking forward to thurs fri sat.
thurs 2-6 cat high friendly, fri 2-6 punggol friendly sat 2-6 bp friendly + thurs night going to watch movie with lin. eithe time traveller's wife or 9 bah.
:D:D:D:D::D
- Mood:
cheerful - Music:namida - 2 backka
16 stalls in canteen. and like 7 + courts. very nice campus.
played with their sec 2s. timothy (8) looks like melvin lol.
got seriously pissed that 0 blocks 0 thunder. f*** and like tensed thru the last 2 sets. got owned duh.
must. relax and use strength to jump. oxy moron but well i get it.
pointers i have to cure:
jump away from the net more.
relax at the 3 step phase. den instantenous explosiveness on the muscles..
flex wrist faster :D
dunman high is a nice campus :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
- Mood:
curious - Music:Collide - Howie Day
Signal Fire - Snow Patrol
The perfect words never crossed my mind,
Cause there was nothin' in there but you.
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me.
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out.
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety.
No, I won't wait forever
No, I won't wait forever
In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire.
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety.
There you are standing right in front of me
There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety.
No, I won't wait forever
No, I won't wait forever
No, I won't wait forever
hey i will wait. forever
Dad leaving for business tmr. sis leaving for jpn for studies on tues. wow. lonesome times again
win :D
- Mood:
crappy - Music:Signal Fire - Snow Patrol
and den karaoked for 2 HOURS. well its nice.
singing is gd to get thoughts out
:D
robben + ribery + tymo + van bommel. what the heck man.
confirm a force in champs league !!.
shall save up for a new jersey :D
SAP seminar today. slacked mugged ecology. saw people i know around on stage around the stage. you get the point.
i'm kinda envy of gun!.closer firneds of mine would understand why.
after that weights math tuitioned and here i am.
oh ya. NANYANG, the food portion is shitty small. 1.70 for like 2 fishballs and like 1.4 the portion of noodle store in high school .
scam.
but the banana there is worth the cash. 40 cents only .
oh and in sabah, i had a weird dream of being in the railway station of germany/france/italy. weird eh. i guess i shall make my way too all three of them in the future
warren <3! a new adopted name from OBsabah
- Mood:
envious - Music:The Climb - Miley Cyrus
Har, we fail to scale the summit, bad weather, but hey, i really cant expect the view man, at the hut, the view down was like so magical, you have to see it to experience it.
picturres just underrate them.
I cant really find the mood/.motivation/urge to write the summary of the trip. but well. it made me realize somethings.
Sometimes more matter how hard you try, if she refuses to let you in, you'll have to wait or come back to attempt another fateful day.
Give your 100%. and you'll get more than 100%.
there's nothing we cant do, its all the discipline and the motivation we have.
These are just few i found thru the trip, on the pillars i focus on my current state, academics, volleyball, trainings, relationships, having fun, and being a teen.
I stinks to feel emo. cant spike well, cant move well, cant gain my the ball snese and speed. argh.
'm getting a weird feeling ya know? Its like a tinggling feeling in the center of the chest whenever i think/hear/see/ anything related to ___________.
it maybe my own false instincts since most of the time i follow my instincts. bam a wall.
but on the contrary of ms sim's thoughts, I'd rather hit the wall untill the wall smashes. then we i get stronger and more mature.
tmr sap seminar. neutral thoughts, go there and see whats installed then.
- Mood:
frustrated - Music:It Ends tonight - AAR
i'm still lacking IH / math and bsp ace. but i shallnt care about them .
obsabah i shall embrace. my parents helping me pack now. so nice right.
i hope my camera can work. so i can take pics :D.
ok see you back 14 days ltr.
SABAH!!!!.
hey. i'll be at sabah sorting out my thinking, energizing for EOYs.
and preserve my determination, cherishing what i have, do giving up,
rest well
- Mood: crazy
"players invited to attend the signing ceremony of the Youth Development Programme were talent scouted in the U - 16 Competition (Youth Cup)".
har i played once in Youth Cup coming off as a sub and "talent scouted" wow...
and ended missing tons of selection trainings. DAM.
now this year. no youth cup cus i'll be in china. den come back got 1 month to get full fitness for season opener.
hope it will be a cracking one :D.
oh ya. the noises of the ghost festival used to be like trrible noises when i was young. for some reason, now 15, i felt that this noise actually makes me feel home. feel like singapore ..
- Mood:
cynical
Where we take this road, Someone's gonna go
hey. i cant pick up the phone to sms/type onto msn/email. Like i feel weird, wondering that if i send its like so stupid. so awkward.
I guess the only platform wold be thru this lj since like i either have no guts to contact. r that you deleted it, hope its because of other reason else i feel stupid posting that...
I cant find the courage to contact you after monday.. its like for no reason. but i just cant pick up the courage.
Sorry for my retarded expressing abilities:
I thought that if i hadn't click "A" on the 35HSC smb on PSLC, this would not happen
If i hadn't get picked on to share a story, hadn't did a forfeit, this will not happen.
If i hadn't spammed added everyone, this shall not happen.
If i had just not reply on july 13th, this might not happen.
If i hadn't went to bsp, this just may not happen
If i hadn't attended bsp and saw you, this situation maybe avoided.
but hey its life, there isn't a reset button. I only can think about it. contemplate. but nth can be changed.
I'll need the time to pick myself up completely. (hopefully before china).
stay well till then. a great man i hsall be. but great man will fall. guardians.
- Mood:
cold - Music:Already Gone - K. Clarkson
cant wait for sabah -> EOY -> Beijing.
emotions are weird. only courage/passion/loyalty is useful. the rest just screw your brain
- Mood:
FUCKED UP - Music:Smile - Uncle Kracker
cause troubles
